Something a little more personal...

Hey guys!

In light of my plans for a revamp, I decided to make my first post a little bit of a personal one. I went into a little bit of detail in my last post about why I decided to revamp the blog. I know my blog isn’t that old, and giving it a makeover might seem a little odd, but it’s something I need to do to maintain my interest in doing it.

Before I started my blog I mulled the idea of it over and over again. I’m kind of weird about my privacy and sharing my thought and things like that, especially on such a potentially large scale, so it was actually quite scary for me put ideas into reality. Along with being private, I also have a bit of a self-confidence issue too. It’s not something I talk about very often, or really at all. Actually, I more prefer to just pretend that it doesn’t exist. But alas, it is always there, in the back of my mind. It rears its ugly head in a big way when it comes to my creative side. I’m so critical of my own work that I find it hard to believe when other people give me compliments. I know it’s a common problem that people must have, but it doesn’t make it any easier to overcome.

On a very personal note, I suffered depression for a while and it definitely plummeted my self-confidence even lower. I’m my own worst critic in the absolute worst way sometimes. For example, I recently went to a wedding and when I was thanking the couple for including me in their special day I was literally confused when they told me that they wouldn’t have not invited me. I have the hardest time believing that I’m any kind of afterthought for people, and I think that’s another thing that kept me from initially jumping in and starting the blog. I think that’s also why I started this blog with the intent of it just being about beauty stuff. Beauty stuff can help make you feel somewhat special when your inner self can’t muster the strength to do it on its own. Now I realise that, while makeup is fun and makes me feel good, and I want to share that with you guys, it’s not the only part of me I want to share. There are so many other things I’m interested in that I can talk about and from now on, if it’s something I want to talk about on my blog, it will go on there. I don’t want to confine myself to a specific genre.

I’m hoping that by pushing myself in this direction I might be able to start to combat my self-confidence issues so I can start to feel genuine in my inner confidence and not just like I’m faking it.

I hope you guys liked this slightly more personal post. If any of you out there have a similar confidence issues I’d love to hear of any methods you have come up with for dealing with them.

I’m thinking that my next post will be about my writing methods and how I go about doing certain things. Also stay tuned for a monthly beauty favourites video, which I might film tomorrow if I feel like it :) 

Hey guys!

It’s been so long since I’ve even sat down with the intention to type something to post on here. I have tonnes of ideas for blog posts and even a couple of YT videos, but honestly, I haven’t felt the slightest inclination to put them into action yet. I do know that I want to talk about the M.A.C. Rocky Horror Picture Show line. It was released in Australian stores last week and I picked up a couple of things. I also have a teeny haul I’m thinking about filming.

The thing is though, as much as I love and am obsessed with makeup, I realised that I don’t want to write only about it. I feel like I need to write about other things. Books, movies, music, things that happen in the world… just whatever is peaking my interest.

I haven’t done a lot of personal writing on here, it was originally designed to be just about makeup and skincare, etc. but now I feel like I want to expand the horizons of what makes me comfortable on here. I’m a somewhat private person. People usually only get information about me that I want them to have and there are very few outside my family that pass that threshold. Now, I’m not saying that I’m going to be spilling all my secrets on here, but I feel like, if I expand the range of things I write about on here, it might help to display my personality better. It’s really hard to talk about makeup, especially to a camera and inject tonnes of your uniqueness into it. I’ve been watching YT videos for a while now and I know that the people I watch regularly were not originally as comfortable and personable as they are now. I know, given time, I will probably feel more comfy on camera too, but honestly, my real passion is writing. It has been since I was a little kid.

The break I took from doing makeup stuff originally started so I could get through some assignments and then once they were finished I realised that I didn’t feel like writing or talking about makeup constantly. As much as I love makeup and watching other people on YT talk about it, I wanted something else for a little while. I even started writing fiction again. I’ve done a whole chapter and a bit, plus some intensive plot and character workups. I won’t be talking about the plot and story ideas on here, because I find that as soon as I start telling other people about my stories, I kind get bored with them, probably because then I get the feeling people expect something out of me and I hate feeling that way about my writing. What I do want to talk about on here from now on (along with all the other stuff mentioned before), are my writing processes. I’d love to here about other people’s processes too. It doesn’t have to be for story writing, it can be for any form of writing. I just would love to share my experiences and the things I’ve learned over time. I’m not success by any means, but writing isn’t about that anyway, but I figure maybe if I share some of my thoughts, you guys can open up and maybe even give me some new ideas and methods that work for you.

So, basically the message I’m trying to get across in this (now very long) post is that my blog is going to be getting a revamp. It will no longer be An Occasional Beauty Dream. I’m even going to alter (not change) the name. I want to keep it close to its original name, just without the ‘Beauty’ part. Maybe I can exchange ‘Beauty’ for ‘Life’? What do you guys think? I’d love some input!

P.S. I just thought I might mention that just because I don't want my blog to just be beauty related anymore doesn't mean I think badly of people who dedicate themselves to bringing us reviews and such about beauty. It's just the opposite. Without YT beauty channels and blogs I wouldn't have plucked up the courage to start my own. I think the people who can make a success of themselves by bringing information about a subject they love to the masses are amazing and lucky, and I hope that one day I can have success in my own areas of interest like them. :)